Responsibility
by Christine
on 09 Dec 2007, 22:27
Dear Britta,
In working with my responsibility and acceptance for all that I have created (or not) currently in my life, I find that 'aspects' surface that suggests I knew better, why did not I do better? I feel a lot of harsh judgment and shame of myself for past choices and decisions that does not feel good. Yet I know by my being fully responsible for all that is, I can change. Very tricky here.
Appreciate your commenting on this for me and other Shaumbra who may be feeling the same.
Love,
Christine
by Zahohie
on 10 Dec 2007, 00:43
Dear Christine,
Yes, I understand very well!!!!
Und through my observation this is a main theme - the judgment. What do I do with a judgment I created (long) time ago ...?!
As I judge myself through other aspects of myself - I can find them in my outside world and within myself expressed through my thoughts.
Very often I am not aware about my own judgments, I only respond to them. This happens through my inner self-talk within my mind or in the outside talking to other people in a kind of an automatic response to their judgments ...
But you Christine has become aware about your judgment. This is a huge step in our process of becoming aware of who we are.
But our first inner response is still an ongoing intend to reject this judgment. We do so as we judge the (harsh) judgment into bad, not wanted - through this judgment we are within the desire of wanting to change it ... wanting to change it, is equal to not accepting ...
How does it feel if you allow yourself to feel this judgment and the shame and all what it is about - to allow those feelings to express themselves and reveal their story and everything what wants to come into the awareness - but without to identify with this (harsh) judgments and the shame - simply listen and feel, as you would listen and feel observing a theater show from a distance - to be in this observation point and to allow to feel and to listen to the judgments, knowing it is only an expression of an aspect of yourself - through this distance you can allow yourself to be in the center of it and still not identifying with it ... as you do so - you are in the full acceptance of this expression, this harsh judgment - at the moment you fully accept and respect this what is and simply breathe with it ... something magic will happen within ... I invite you to observe... simply allow what is - again and again - as the observer - and then - after this deep inner acceptance you can invite something new - a new expression for yourself ...
Through this deep inner acceptance you are accepting yourself and your creation, this means you are in a deep inner appreciation to yourself. This feeling of appreciation is a kind of healing for everything you are.
I know, very often it is not easy to do so - but through my observation this is the magic: the allowance of this what is, without identifying with it
Feel the shame, feel this harsh judgment - allow it as it is - don't try to change it - the change is within the allowance, within the acceptance ...
At the moment you choose to be the observer you already have chosen to express something different.
The change will occur by itself through this allowance - but it needs its own time...
If you have problems to allow these feelings at the beginning - observe what is coming up instead and allow this and observe this ...
Love - Britta
by Christine
on 10 Dec 2007, 20:15
Dear Britta,
I so resonated with your response. Thank you.
Yesterday, I found myself saying "Screw it. I have done what I can do and if everything is not what I thought is ideal, so be it. It just is what it is!" I am in a total space of neutral, without judgement. No more struggle. It just is.
I have done my purpose of this lifetime to help Shaumbra bring in the New Energy to Earth. So I am taking a rest. Nothing to do, but just be in acceptance of all that is. I am loving my little snug place and enjoying loving myself.
And so it is! It just is!
Love,
Christine
by Zahohie
on 11 Dec 2007, 16:45
Dear Christine,
Congratulations!!!!
Yes, without judgement our inner and outside world is just fine as it is ... But to be without judgement - to get there ... wow ... quite a journey ... Because being without judgement is NOT quite the same as »I don’t care« ...
Without judgement, this is to be and let be ... this is to allow myself to express my preferences and allow others their preferences ...
Thanks for sharing here!
Love
Britta