"Britta" is the name of my personality, my story, which found expression through this body that you can see and sense with your human senses. But behind this personality there is something more, something which goes beyond the human being....

When I started to discover this, I started to understand who I AM really.

Reincarnation?! For a long time this was a theme I couldn't accept for myself. If there were other people who wanted to believe in it -  okay - but not I! In spite of all this I started to allow myself to open up step by step for new experiences like meditation and "listen" inside of me.... I was kind of playing around with those themes. I wanted to know how these things worked and how they felt.

One day as I followed a guided meditation, I could feel and experience very clearly that my thoughts and I are not the same - I could clearly feel a distance between them.

At this time in my life I came more and more in contact with a world that was outside of what people could see as normal. I learned, recognize, and felt that inside of myself and around me exist more than only my body and tangible things. I started to perceive other realms. But these experiences were not a subject of will. I could not will these kinds of experiences - in the sense of doing or making. I only could let it happen. Questions, observations, and openly allowing that it can happen guided me, in increasingly shorter time periods, to a new understanding about myself and this world that seemed so different. The more I accepted what I really felt inside of me, and what started to show up inside of me, the clearer my understanding became for everything that is.

During this time I learned to distinguish my inside voice (the "new" voice inside of me) from what was coming from my mind (my "normal" thoughts). This "new" voice was part of me too, but it also brought a completely new wisdom within. If I could "listen" to my "new" voice inside of me, which was at the first not very easy for me, then I could reveal to myself a completely new understanding and knowledge about who I am, who others are, and what was really going on in my life.

Step by step I came to the understanding that I am not only this personality here with the name Britta. No, I am much, much more. Inside of me there is a "something," a gathered individual experience from many, many other lifetimes and other expressions of myself here on earth and in many other realms. Realms that go beyond human understanding. This is what I call I AM - I AM ALL THAT AND WHO I AM.

Hmm, this may be difficult to understand for a human mind. It is something that I can only experience. I'll never find the understanding of this in my mind!

So one day I asked myself: "If I'm not only Britta.... but also this I AM.... is there a name for it? If so, what is it?!"

This was why I sat down again and I "listened." After a while I could sense a kind of sound that was coming to me and I tried to express it through my voice - to speak it - and it felt something like this:

zsaaaawhooooooowhiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

And so I tried to bring it into a human language and to write it. The outcome is: "Zahohie." 

So, this is my story of how I came to the name, "Zahohie." Now you know!

April 2005